happy birthday to me, happy homeworking to me too!

today is my birthday. hajar wished me first! =) n then this evening, my roomates brought me to have dinner at one vietnam restaurant. sweet and sour tilapia yum yum! >.<

n then i got babelti from uhuk2, tenks youuuuuu. <3

n on dis GLOOOOOORIOUSSSSS night, ill be doing my homework. how pathetic is dat?! wanna know my schedule after this?

next week : physics lab exam, static project due, physics exam, bioscience exam.
next 2 week : chem161 exam.
next 3 week : static exam.

FCUKKKKK!!! =.=

n i bought 2 pairs of pants, one for me n the other for my twin. hoho, its like polka dots, pink color. comelll~ =) hihihi..

andddddd....hurmmmmm...xtawuuuuu....ttyl!

thank goddddddddd there is no good movie this weekend! n i am rooting for new moon! yeayyyy saranghaeee!~ cepatla nov 20. =D

today

celebrating festivals are not very welcoming for me like almost every time. during Eid, i had exams, and on my birthday too, i got exams. and for da fact that i had fever, that was even worse. planning to do my homework tonight. probably after i bathed.

You and I

new song from 2ne1 member, park bom. lol smgat. >.<

No matter what happens
Even when the sky is falling down
I'll promise you
That I'll never let you go

Oh~~~Oh~~Oh~~~oh~~Oh~~~oh~~Yeah~~~

You, When I fall
you held me back up with an unfaltering gaze

And You, through those sad times
held my hands till the end of the world

I might be a shabby person who has never done anything for you
But today, I am singing this song just for you
Tonight, within those two eyes
and smile I can see the pains from protecting me
You and I together. It's just feel alright
Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you
You and I together, don't ever let go of my hands
even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you


Our love has changed a bit by bit just like others
But don't be sad
Hopefully I will be someone who you can trust like an old friend
and someone you can lean onto
I promise you that I'm be right here baby


I might be a shabby person who has never done anything for you
But today, I am singing this song just for you
Tonight, within those two eyes
and smile I can see the pains from protecting me
You and I together. It's just feel alright
Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you
You and I together, don't ever let go of my hands
even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you


I close my eyes lightly whenever I feel lonely again
I no longer fear when your breath holds me
No one in the world can replace you
You are the only one in I'll be there for you baby


You and I together, It's just feeling alright
Even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you
You and I together, don't ever let go my hands
even though i bid you goodbye, to me this world is just you

Just you and I
Forever and ever..


credit to : whimsical being


dis is super sad. if you just listen to the song, for me, i didnt really give me dat strong impression, dat can make it stick to my head. but the mv. damn. im trying to not cry. like. hwaaaaaaa!!!



okay baru nk post BB klua lgu baru. <3>

fall break

within my four years here, i'll go to New York someday. n God bless, maybe Korea? =)

i watched paranormal activity. not as scary as i thought. blergh. but msa nk tido mmg susah gile, asek trbayang kaki kene tarik dgn hantu la, buka slimut nmpk hantu la. aish. not so quality sleep these days.

n cepatlah black friday omigoddddddd. have not been shopping since summer. >.<

and as for now, HW Day! 2 days of lagha-ing, time to study now! T_______________T

aja2 fighting!

4 in the morning

its 4 in the morning and probably after this, im gonna go to sleep. this week is heavenlyyy, no hw at all like for the first time dude, n even though certain things didnt go well, im anticipating the fall break next week!



n yesterday i watched the stepfather, awesomee, eventhough for the first hour, it was kinda bored, but the stepfather sure is creepy, he popped out out of nowhere, like crappppp. lol. n i screamed in the cinema, didnt really care act, others screamed too, lol~ n today the seniors did the open house. yesterday the juniors. the food was awesomeeeeee! i got to eat lemang finally. <3<3<3 what elseeee, oh i got static exam on monday, and i didnt study anything yet, haha. gonna start studying today, after i wake up. =D just watched 6 episodes of greys anatomy today, finished all nur kasih episodes, didnt like the story, but since i already watched it, gotta know the flow of story, man i hate dat girl sarah, psycho maniatic girl, wuteva you can name her. eeeee. n also i watched americas next top model cycle 13 episode 7, thank godddd kara was eliminated, she always criticised nicole. i realised that girls hating nicole ended up being eliminated. first the 2 black girls, n now kara. they spend too much time hating her doing a decent job, waitt, not decent, faaaaaaabulous job, instead of spending time on learning to model, duhhhhhh.



yeah basically dat was wut i did today. oh i watched family outing too! i miss dae sung, come back earlyyy! he requested tae hyun for this episode, n tae hyun came to replace him just for this episode, didnt know they were this close. >.< n i updated my song player in this blog, the latest songs dat im addicted to.



n oh one+one more things, i just hate when people lied to me. so please, just be truthful, like seriousy everyone. T___T i wudnt mind if im not part of it, but dun lied, i dunno,mybe u dun wanna include me in,i really dun mind,or u dun wanna upset me, but just, be honest. n also, bile aku kata pantang, i really2 mean it. if u crossed dat boundary, fuck you. when i say the word 'PANTANG' damn you guys, that was like my last warning, my last rational limit before im pissed off, before i start cursing u, before i start to feel like i just wanna smacked you directly. ok mengantuk nk tido. dun worry, im not mad, ok im lyin. its just dat i might be moody to some of you which leads to me not talking to you, for a while. sorry its the days of the month, u just chose the wrong timing to screw up with me.

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1.09am and a long way to go

i just downloaded flock browser. kinda exploring it right now, but going back to studying now.
and its pretty awesome. like i can post blog entry from here. n also there's like tiny side bar for facebook. n other stuff that im going to explore soon. do anticipate. focus physics! hopefully i'll do well eventhough i started revising rather late. -_-'

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definitely dissapointed. T_T

i know if i started long time beforeee, i would have got better. i am very sure. they seemed familiar but i cant recalled. you know how freakin annoying that made me felt. as if i'm an idiotic. i revised old stuff that i thought would linked to the new ones, but it seemed that failed. terribly disappointed. got scared, tried to focus on the coming one instead. now dat it seemed living is so hard.. felt like dying aahh.

i know things cant be changed, so i stopped complaining. n tried to make a life, surviving. but. im a person with no soul. aaah. :|

i definitely need to post this because its true! like seriously shit!

Scorpio Strength Keywords:

- Loyal
- Passionate
- Resourceful
- Observant
- Dynamic

Scorpio Weakness Keywords:

- Jealous
- Obsessive
- Suspicious
- Manipulative
- Unyielding

Scorpio and Independence:

Scorpios are fiercely independent. They are able to accomplish anything they put their mind to and they won't give up. They are perfectly suited to being on their own. They are not social butterflies like some other zodiac signs and some actually prefer to live on their own that way there is never any issue of who controls what at home, they like to be in control. (this part is not very true... hahahaha!)

Scorpio and Friendship:

Relationships with Scorpio are always complicated, just like the person, their relationships are a series of extremes, they can even be downright moody for no apparent reason. Scorpios are known for their possessiveness and jealousy but on the other hand, they are extremely loyal. Scorpios have an excellent memory and combined with an inability to let things go, they can hold a grudge against someone who did them harm forever, in fact a Scorpio rarely if never forgives and forgets. They will even go as far as get vengeance on the person. On the other hand, they will always remember a kind gesture forever and repay it. Any kind selfless gesture done to a Scorpio will gain trust and respect which is extremely important to them in any relationship, either romantic or not. The best advice is to be honest with a Scorpio friend and in return, you will gain an amazing friend you will never forget and who will be loyal to you and never make false promises. Their truthful and shocking sense of humor if different than that of any other zodiac sign and the Scorpio makes an amazing, powerful interesting friend that can be trusted.

Scorpio and Business:

Scorpios make excellent doctors, surgeons, (i know me n house suits each other, dayumn) scientists and leaders, they are perfectly suited to any form of business that makes a difference in the world, greatly impacts people and society and a most importantly, Scorpio has to be in a power position, this is why these careers are suited to the Scorpio, they all demand one person in supreme control giving orders and leading a unit of people/practices. In business, Scorpios tend to easily gather wealth, they make very wise business decisions and they are very conservative about spending their money. Scorpios are known for making money and hiding it, they will not announce it due to to fear that others will take the same route and becoming a possible competitor, or worse try to use the Scorpio to their advantage to use them for their money.

Scorpio and Temperament:

Scorpios are extremely ambitious, persistent and determined which is shown through a power hungry, controlling attitude. Not in a stubborn sense however, because a Scorpio will work for what they want and control will justified reasons. This is obvious to any onlooker. A Scorpio never gives up, they are so determined to reach their goal. The key to this success is their flexibility. They are able to re-survey a situation and take a different approach if necessary. This makes them very adaptable and versatile. Scorpios are fierce competitors, combined with their powers of observation and their excellent memory, they will recall facts and when necessary, bring them to the table at the time of need. They will win justly, with proper facts and arguments to support their thoughts and opinions. Scorpios are excellent at restoring order to a chaotic situation and they are just as capable of manipulating for their own greed and benefit. The un-evolved Scorpio is a very dangerous person because they use their powers to benefit only them and step on other people in order to satisfy their own greed.

Scorpio Deep Inside:

Scorpio is the most misunderstood of all astrology signs. They are all about intensity and contradictions. They like to be aware of a situation and always know what's going on, figuring this out with their probing mind, on the other hand, they are interested in the occult, the paranormal, conspiracy theories and other types of similar unknown mysteries. They are very capable of hiding their true feelings and motivations, they often have ulterior motives or a hidden agenda. (haa u think u know me? blerghh. ^^,)
Scorpios are all about control, they need to be in control at all times. To be out of control is very threatening, even dangerous to the Scorpio's psyche, when they control, they feel safe.
Scorpios are very emotional, their emotions are intensified, both good emotions and bad. (emo hani) Negative emotions of jealousy and resentment are hallmarks of this turbulent astrology sign. On the other side, Scorpios are well known for their forceful and powerful drive to succeed and their amazing dedication. Scorpios are constantly trying to understand their emotions through finding a deeper purpose in life.
Scorpios are very intuitive, but not as in a psychic sense, more as intuitive into the human mind, they have a great understanding of the mystery and the power of the human mind. (psychology is my option too >.<) Scorpios have a fear of failure which they keep hidden extremely well, should their confrontation not be successful, or their career fail, they will simply use their adaptive skill to quickly move and and leave the bad experience behind. Do not ever expect them to fess up or share their tale with ANYONE however because this shows signs of weakness and Scorpio always wins, they are always the self-proclaimed best! One of the reasons they seem like they always accomplish their goals is because they set tangible short-term goals that they know they can accomplish, they know what they are capable of and this is what they go for.
Scorpios are very weary about trusting anyone, a person needs to gain their trust and this gets built up over time and once all the 'trust tests' have been passed, Scorpio loves deeply and intensely. Underneath the cool exterior, energies and emotions are constantly flowing but the Scorpio deals with this be channeling this into useful activities, hobbies, relationships or a career. This is never apparent to the outside observer but knowing this fact explains why Scorpios are so passionate about whatever it is that they are undertaking. Scorpios have powerful instincts and they trust their own gut feeling (dr dlu xsuke dgr mak ckap nie haa, truk btul) which is another reason why a Scorpio seldom fails.
The ongoing lesson in life for those born under the Scorpio zodiac signs, is to channel their powerful energy into positive goals and not succumbing to the darker forces in life such as manipulation and greed, they will then have great success in their life and have a clean, happy conscience and a circle of friends they can trust and hold dear to them.

Scorpio in a Nutshell:

Scorpio is the astrology sign of extremes and intensity. Scorpios are very deep, intense people, there is always more then meets the eye. They present a cool, detached and unemotional air to the world yet lying underneath is tremendous power, extreme strength, intense passion and a strong will and a persistent drive. Scorpios have a very penetrative mind, do not be surprised if they ask questions, they are trying to delve deeper and figure things out and survey the situation. They always want to know why, where and any other possible detail they can possibly know. Scorpio's are very weary of the games that other people try to play and they are very aware of it. Scorpios tend to dominate and control anyone that lets them, or anyone that they find weak. The person that a Scorpio respects and holds close to them is treated with amazing kindness, loyalty and generosity. On the outside, a Scorpio has great secretiveness and mystery. This magnetically draws people to them. They are known to be controlling and too ambitious but only because they need control for this makes them feel safe.

i always find such quizzes, psychology thing to be fascinating because of how well they can understand human mind, not that i want people to know too many things about me (ok im lying, just a bit, but not all, scorpio is secretive taw, awwww, haha)

are we close?

Many people have wondered why we tend to verbally attack our closest family members when we have any reason to be angry or upset. Despite any rationalizations we may do, in most cases, anger is not a very loving act.

Why is it that we often treat strangers much better than we treat our own children, spouses and others close to us?

The reason is actually fairly simple. We show considerably more anger towards people we love because the more we love someone, the more open our heart tends to be.

That in itself is not an issue -- in fact, that is how it should be. The problem is that the more open we are, the more vulnerable we are to those close to us. When a stressful situation involving a family member arises, a protective shield of anger comes into play. This is why we lash out at our family far more violently than we would at a stranger.



these are taken from my senior's note, which i find true. indeed. self explanatory. im not saying that when im treating you harshly, dat means im closer to you (which is true) n it is right for me to do dat. just understand why would i be reacting like dat to you sometimes (basically all the time), i would be very grateful of you. =)



n also, "The problem is that the more open we are, the more vulnerable we are to those close to us.". this strucked me the most. im not the type of person that have many friends. just a few, but closer, which is preferable. i did have few person that manage to make me be so vulnerable in front of them, haha. i cried in front of them, i told them almost all stories about my crushes, my wishes, my dreams, my dissapointments, my study thing, me arguing with others and other things. and one of them just made something that made me hard to trust anyone now. i dont know how to put it in word. i know myself very well i would say. its like when you are desperately and vulnerably depending on a person, and he or she dissapointed you or simply broke the relationship, you dont know how much it impact me. :|

tomorrow : cheme exam. gosh. im afraid. dont be malas2 hani.